This week our family found out that my mother has cancer throughout her body. Thus far I’ve been able to gather that there is cancer in her lungs, liver, and spine. The thought keeps running through my mind that she could not be with us very much longer. I’m bewildered and confused. I’m not scared about what will happen to me once she’s gone. For that matter, I’m not scared about what will happen to her once she’s gone; I’m confident that she will be warmly welcomed in the arms of our Lord Jesus. She has done nothing extraordinary except serve others extraordinarily well in the name of love and the Lord. As the oldest sibling in a broken family she served as a mother to her younger sisters and brother before she became a mother to my brother and I. She has always sacrificed her time and comforts for those she loves, and sometimes those she barely even knows.
What I am scared of is watching her suffer. I know my mom will fight this to the bitter end because that is her nature. She has whipped cancer once before (23 years ago) and she is planning on beating it again. But to beat cancer again she’s going to have to endure much suffering.
But even more than this, what I fear is how my children will remember her. Will they understand what a remarkable person she was? Will they even remember her at all?
I’m also a little bit scared about how my dad will respond when this is all through. He has depended on her for so much throughout the years and has often, as we all have, taken all the little daily tasks that she does for granted.
I pray that God will grant her the strength to overcome cancer for a second time, and that we can all be the support we need to be for her throughout this fight.
There are three stages in the work of God: Impossible; Difficult; Done. – Hudson Taylor